Since the day I was born on that cold and snowy day of December 1953. My so called life was not the perfect life you see in movies like "Leave it to beaver or Father knows best". My life growing up began to unfold like a bad dream. Like "The Mummy" or "Freddie Kruger".

As a child I was beaten and tortured on a regular basis. In fact I was beaten to the point of death 4 times. I survived a deadly car accident, numerous operations, heart attack, liver disease, organ failures as well sever emotional and physical distress most of these problems I associated with my former abuse!

Growing up abused left me unprepared as an adult for the responsibilities as a normal person as well as husband and father. As I began to write my story it started out as my goodbye letter to my family as my physical condition had gotten to an all time low and I was told I had just about two weeks left to live.

I have been told that the story of my life carries an important message to both those who are abused as well as to the abusers. I am living proof that a person can survive abuse without drugs or alcohol and never resort to becoming an abuser themselves. As for the abusers, my life is living proof of the effects that abuse can have on a child throughout their life.

My life story starts at the very beginning of how I came to be and carries you through my life's experiences both good and bad. You will experience my life's lessons of growing up and finding true love and the pain associated with all the abuse I experienced first hand as a child.