This story has come from deep within my heart as a mother and a grandmother. The only way I have been able to continue on is because of my faith in God. He has seen me through so many trials in my life but nothing compares to the loss of a child. Proverbs 3; 5,6 says, "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto your own understanding. In all ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths." He will do exactly that for us if we allow Him to. Beyond my faith, my grandchildren, Siraya and Shamir, have been my grace and mercy in the five years since we lost their mommy. She would be so very proud of them and how they are developing into such wonderful human beings. She and Earnest planted the seed and we are reaping the harvest of their works in the children.