When Paul McGregor's dad tried to take his own life, it changed Paul's worldview forever. Of course he hadn't seen it coming, and so all his old certainties dissolved and he struggled to cope. Paul's dad eventually recovered in hospital and went home, and it seemed as though things could now finally start to improve.

But then a few months later, tragedy struck. Paul's dad made a second attempt on his life, walking in front of a lorry. He died instantly.

In order to distract himself from his grief, Paul began to overwork himself and chase "success." He found himself in a dark place, suffering from depression and fearing that he'd follow in his dad's footsteps. How could he, as a man, show his vulnerability?

Man Up Man Down is Paul's tale of recovery. It also explores what it means to be a man in today's society. How do you cry, how do you express emotion, and how do you admit you're struggling, when everything you've been taught tells you to "man up" and get on with it? Trigger are proud to announce Theinspirationalseries partner to their innovative Pullingthetriggerrange. Theinspirationalseries promotes the idea that mental illness should be talked about freely and without fear. Find out more at