Because you do not accept what you are, an immortal being having a creative experience with body, you cannot find that which you seek so desperately. Your misteachings about sexuality and God keep you from integrating sexual energies with God energies in any meaningful way, and so the path to heaven on earth through blissful sexual union eludes you to a great extent.
The sexual energies of the ego are leading you to a dark and dangerous precipice, and we wish to call you back - back to love and the loving, kind, fulfilling, and glorifying expressions of spiritual love, your true salvation.
We are here to teach the way to divine bliss, and we know you are scared - scared to lie naked caressing your lover with rapt attention and honor. We know you are scared to kiss and kiss and connect, to feel such deep connection and pleasure that the ego starts to get very nervous, sensing the threat to the wellguarded and limited access to your heart that it deems to be safe.